a very touching message indeed. i have gone through depression prolonged myself, still not out of it. but mother as sri fhanindra, sort of envelops me with a blanket of grace as it were even as the fires of hell torture me. he allows me to struggle and when i loose hope calls me to him and gives me an experience of peace, a whiff of amrit as it were, readying me for further struggles. i am now engaged. how i work i alone know. my colleagues consider me efficient though slow and even consult me on some topics but i know but for guru's grace i would have been a laughing stock. i know my mind so i can say this. today sri fhanindra left for his home in upper assam where his ista deity mother durga is to be worshiped in the coming days. before going he stressed on me the need of having a personality of one's own, whatever calling of life one may follw. to have conviction in what one finds to be true and not to let one's words go in vain. that is, our words must carry weight. without personality nothing will avail. pu. bhuteshananda ji the first time i saw him (on tv) in december 1993 similarly stressed on being brave and building up one's character. today my turbulent mind was set to rest and given new courage and inspiration by the hour spent with sri fhanindra who on parting uttered a silent prayer for me. like ma sarada, silent, onobstrusive yet potent and ever patient. love, ankur
I have got published this wonderful article in the feature page of The Sentinel,a daily published from Guwahati, Assam, so that more and more people can share its inspirational content. Thank you, and a very happy Durga Puja.
Ankur
