2 years is a long time. Maybe there is a way to find him. I looked for old posts but mine only go back to
2004. Maybe his computer died. Maybe he is laying on the beach in Goa. I'm not being flip, but things do happen.
I looked up the word "darshan" to see if I were using it correctly. My interpretation has always been "in the presence of the guru" but when I looked it up in the Hindu glossary it said, "seeing: vision". I don't know if it was correct, but what I meant was... that there are different silences, and sometimes the guru looks at you with silence, and it is very different than seeing empty silence on the internet.
We can hear each other and that is all, so silence,here to me means nothing, or just "No comment or reply." That is how I see it.
I have a copy of the "The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna" but let me know if you'd rather start with the other and I will order it.
Today is my birthday, and there has been celebration all day at work, and the family will be doing it up the weekend, so if you reply, I will reply as soon as I can. Just to let you know, I'll be back.
Paritosh and I have often thought of Anthony. The way he disappeared has never felt quite right. Frankly, I have felt as if he may have come to harm. We have tried to contact him once we realized he was 'missing', but his email address stopped working.
In the end we are forced, as always, to leave everything in Mother's hands.
Many years ago there was another of Mother's sons who 'disappeared'. He was in the service and would post often. Then, too, I had to give any concern over to Mother. Still, it is natural to think of missed friends, sisters, brothers from time to time.