[When body of Swami Yogananda was being carried away for cremation] a long wail broke out upstairs – and went forth with the sound of the worship from below – for the women knew that it meant the he who had so long been master of the house was about to leave it forever. Yogin-ma’s icy calm was broken now – and I thought she and the Mother would break their hearts. (LSN, To Josephine MacLeod, 30/3/1899, Vol. 1, 1982, p. 97.) The death of Yogananda (One of Ramakrishna’s monastic followers and Mother’s first disciple and attendant, Swami Yogananda gave up his mortal body on March 28, 1899 at Mother’s residence, at that time 10/2 Bosepara Lane.) has been a terrible blow to her…. She cannot now bear the sound of the word die. It has been such human grief. “Yes, he has gone to my Lord,” she said, “I know that. But it was my Yogananda, and he was taken away from me!” (LSN, To Mrs. Ole Bull, 26/4/1899, Vol 1, 1982, p. 127.)
(REMINISCENCES OF Sri Sarada Devi by Monastics, Devotees, and others -
Compiled and Edited in Bengali by SWAMI PURNATMANANDA - Translated by MALOTI SEN GUPTA : P 115-116)