14 years ago, probably from acolumbinesite

hey dyl, can\'t believe you are gonna be the big 4-0 next month! where does the time go? i wish so badly that you could be celebrating that huge milestone with your loved ones.

i hope you are okay wherever you are.

:revolving_hearts:

also a big thank you to tish for keeping this site running after all this time! <3

rest in piece dylan. i\'m sorry.

I\'m so sorry for how you suffered Dylan, both at the hands of other people and your depression. You deserved so much better in life. I hope we will meet someday, and I hope you have found peace in cascading waterfalls.

Twitter user

United Kingdom

I understand, I understand Dylan. There was a terrible storm going on in your head, it wasn’t your fault Dylan, it wasn’t you. Society will cast you as ‘evil’ because they just don’t understand the extent of your dismal, they just can’t see the torment and unrest in your mind. Dylan, I know you were hurting. I wish you would have screamed at the top of your lungs all of the things you needed to say, instead of what you did. You probably thought that no one would understand, I know you would’ve felt hopeless and lost in this world. I just want you to know, I understand Dylan, I know what you were going through. People just don’t understand the terrible suffering you were going through. When people have never been to that place; the worst and darkest existence, there’s so way they can get it, because they’ve never been through it. Homicidal ideation and suicidal ideation are very closely linked. Homicidal ideation + suicidal ideation is seen often in severely depressed people with a specific mix of symptoms. There’s usually a change in thought process when someone becomes so severely depressed and suicidal, which includes lack of hope, isolating oneself, feeling emotionally and physically empty, pains in body, unable to cry or crying over very minor incidents. When I paint a picture of someone with severe depression I see a sluggish body, lack of emotion in the face (which is often hidden with much effort); a tired and rigid body, emotionless eyes (I’ve seen it far too often), aggression and emotional disregulation; a need to be in the dark and away from any life around them. If someone has a severe form of depression (which Dylan had), socialising difficulties (present from childhood) and certain personality traits (paranoid ideation, avoidant traits, etc) there is a chance of homicidal ideation developing and changing thought patterns. I assume Dylan experienced homicidal ideation, after years of feeling hopeless (a precursor for suicide), isolated, social anxiety; a deep rooted feeling of lack of control over ones situation and self, anger, built up and unreleased hatred of the things around him (this is obvious in Dylan’s later journal entries), getting stuck on a certain type of thinking and thought process, because it makes them feel powerful or stronger than when they were suicidal. People wonder why mass shootings are committed more by men, and it’s most often because men don’t release their emotions in a healthy way, leading to a big explosion of rage; inadequate feelings, loneliness and difference. I just want you to know, that there are many people who try to understand or understand, because they have experienced the same kind of struggles.
Rest In Peace, Dylan.
P.S Dear Sue Klebold, I just wanted to say how strong you truly are. You’re a wonderful, kind and brave woman. A beautiful soul that has been through the worst times and is still here and making a big difference in the mental health community.
From Georgina S xx

rest in peace, sunshine boy.

i miss you a lot even though we never met. hopefully in after life, right? hopefully it is all real and hopefully you\'ll be there too, dyl. i\'m so sorry for everything that happened, i\'m truly sorry. i cannot even bring to the words how much i\'m hurt to see the things that happened, and i cannot even think about how you felt, it hurts me, i ache, it turns my stomach upside down and i feel sick just by thinking about it. dear baby, i\'m sorry for everything that happened. you deserved love, you needed love, true love but no one gave it to you. wish i was there, wish i was alive at that time to tell you how much you deserved.

you are always in my mind, and heart, and you shall stay there forever. maybe one day i\'ll hold your hands and tell these words to you in person, maybe not now, but some time. i\'ll be looking for you.

always and forever, in my heart.

love,
anastasia

Sweden

Glad to see others cherish the good things about Dylan as well, instead of focusing on all the bad.

It\'s nice to see a website for Dylan. At least someone cares about him.

Croatia

great tragedy. peace to all.

browsing around reading up on what happened and why. trying to better know you guys :/

orange county CA

i had this nice long speel that i typed out for you guys talking about how bright you were and that life sucks but its worth it to stick it out. and that life is precious, very deep and very personal. but for sone reason it poofed away so you get the cliff notes version... sorry
basically wish i could have been there for yall to let you know it was ok, ive been there and i understand and agree that people have latched on to this superficial template for living. i feel like society warped you two and it warped you so much and with no one there to guide you you became lost...
i love you guys and i forgive you for what you did...
-james j landrum